It is amazing what a little baby can do to your heart as a mama. I love my little Beckam and am so thankful for his sweet, soft, and endearing spirit. I have felt a strong connection to him even before he was placed in my arms and am thankful to be his mom. Although being a mom brings along a lot of joys it is also accompanied by many pains and sorrows.
A week ago we went to the doctor for a check up and found out that Beckam most likely has some problems with this skull. Nothing that cannot be repaired with surgery but that is the clincher...surgery. It makes my heart just ache to think of the potential pain, recovery, set backs, scars, the unknown, but most of all to know that I cannot be there to hold him, to give him kisses, to make sure he is warm, and to reassure him that he doesnt need to be scared. He has a Catscan on Satruday morning that brings with it more waiting to find out the final diagnosis. I must admit that I am thankful that this potential problem has been spotted and treated now before it becomes a major problem but you just dont ever want your baby to have to hurt. However, after many tears, hours on my knees and a few blessings I can confidently say that I know that everything will be okay but that there might still be a long hard road ahead of our family. So until next week all we can do is just wait...
We had the joy of having Becks baby blessing this past Sunday and it was such a wonderful experience. Jared did a wonderful job and I greatly look forward to watching this little man grow, develop and fulfill the many things that he was blessed with. We were also able to have a great deal of family here to participate and celebrate with us, which made the occasion just that more special. Thank you to everyone who made such a huge effort and sacrifice to come support us and Beckam.
What a blessing it is to know that we have forever as families.
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Oh Lacey, that broke my heart reading that. Having gone through something similar with Kylee, it is a heart wretching thing to see a child in pain, or any type of discomfort for that matter. Know that our family will be praying for Beckem's surgery and I guess when it all comes down to it, it's truly about faith, and trusting what the lord has in store. What a huge blessing to hear in his baby blessing that he will be healthy and strong and go on to serve a mission(I remember the blessing)Now I guess all you can do is "Be a mom" and comfort him...
Lace, I was so sorry to hear about Beckam. He is so lucky to have a mom like you that loves him so much. Know that we will be praying for you all.
p.s. These pictures of you and Beckam and Jared are so beautiful!
Lacey my heart honestly goes out to you and your sweet little family. My good friend just went through something similar where her little Lukas' skull had grown together at one part and ended up having to do surgery to fix the problem. It is so great that modern medicine allows us to do such things. And it is even more wonderful that you are the type of person that would spend hours on her knees in order to know it is going to be okay. Lacey you cease to amaze me. Your testimony of our Savior has always been so strong and it has been a strength to me for sure! I love you and will keep your little Beckem my prayers!
Lacey, I am so sad to hear that about Beckam. When it come to your kids, it is so hard to hear that something is wrong with them and that they might possibly need surgery. I know you are so strong and that you guys can conquer this. We love you guys and will be praying for you!
You are such a beautiful person. Honestly, you never cease to amaze me! Thank you for sharing your strength. Good luck with everything, you're definitely in my prayers. *B
Lacey, I want to give you a big hug right now! He is the luckiest little guy to have a mommy as strong as you. You are such a great example of our faith to me and I know that the Lord hears and answers prayers and he will help you get through this. I know that you already know that but I just wanted to reassure just in case your feeling low. I love you, and everything will work itself out. Please call me if you need anything at all. I would love to watch Cade on Saturday if you need me to while Becks is at his catscan. Or if you just need a hug...I am really good at that!! Hang in there, we will continue to pray for little Becks.
PS... you look BEAUTIFUL in these pics!
Lacey, I am so sorry to hear that about little Beckem...I feel your pain. When we found out Luke was going to need multiple heart surgeries I was absolutely devastated. Watching my baby in pain is the hardest thing I have ever experienced. I was too comforted by many blessings and many hours on my knees and that's what got me through that difficult time...but it sure wasn't easy. Just like everyone else has already said, have faith and trust in the Lord. On a happier note, fortunately he is born at a time when modern medicine can correct the problem. Also, you will be amazed how quickly he bounces back...kids are sooo resilient. (sorry so long)
Thinking of you... hang in there!
p.s. you look amazing!
Lacey, you worded that so perfectly and it touched my heart to know of your faith and patience. We are constantly praying for baby Becham and know that GOd will take care of him. I am so glad we were there for his blessing- what an amazing little guy he is and will be. You and Jarod are such great parents and your little men are just adorable. We love you guys and my favorite picture is the one of you two and little Beckam in the middle. That is definatly priceless. Love you and I hope that you will call me, if you ever need to talk.
We will definitely keep Beckam and your family in our prayers.
I'll be thinking of as you are going through this trial! You are so strong! And Beckham and you are BEAUTIFUL!
WE love you, and are in our prayers!!! Jared did a great job on baby b's blessing!!!Becks is so adorable, and am so glad I finally Got to hold my little man!!!!
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