Beckam: 7 months

• You love to sleep on your side
• I can always count on you to eat your vegetables but sometimes have to convince you to eat your fruit.
• You discovered that you can sit all by yourself on New Years Eve. However, you still sometimes get distracted and tip yourself over.
• You like to eat your toes but get stuck in half and cannot get back up.
• You always fuss when you see mommy so she will pick you up.
• You love graham crackers.
  

• You have 2 teeth... just barely... you can see them above.
• You drool like crazy and love to eat everything.
• Your smile comes clear from your toes and radiates through your eyes. You love to share your smile with everyone.
• You have adorable chunky legs. Mommy calls them, "your chunky monkeys"
• You think that Cade is the funniest person in the whole world. You will always laugh at him and love to watch his every move.
• You hate to have your face cleaned or nose wiped.
• When you get excited to kick your legs like crazy.
• You like to blow bubbles still.
  

We love you our little Becks... you are wonderful!

I Will Admit...

I am in a rut. Not a comfortable, productive, eat the same thing for lunch kind of a rut but a why is my house always a mess kind of a rut? A why does my laundry always seem to be dirty or in need of folding kind of a rut. A I need a minute for myself but I have a non-napping preschooler and a very grouchy teether on my hands kind of a rut. A I know I should get to the gym but cant quite get in the groove kind of a rut. A why does my bathroom always smell like little boy pee kind of a rut. A we need more space but I have to worry about feeding mouths first so forget about a house kind of a rut. A why the heck is the car broken again kind of a rut. A I know I should be planning a lesson but my brain is fried kind of a rut. A I know I need to get out but I seem to always have someone sleeping or sick kind of a rut. A I want to be a great photographer so much I can taste it, I dream it, I constantly think about it but never have time to pick up a camera because my arms are always full and I am basically terrified to see what the picture product will be because I don't have a clue what I am doing kind of a rut. Basically I am in a self pity, totally overwhelmed kind of a rut. A rut that I have been wallowing in and clawing my way out of all at the same time. I wake up each morning and think, "today will be different. I will clean. I will play with my boys. I will make dinner. I will get on top of my life." However, by the time 10:00am has rolled around and I have cleaned up spilled milk 3 times, tubbied 2 boys and subsequently cleaned up lots of spilled water, cleaned up toys just to find they have migrated out into the living room again, gotten ready for the gym just to have Beckam bellow in protest and beg for a nap I scrap the plan, throw my hands in the air, and spend the day attempting to "get it all done."
I remember, back in October when Beckams surgery was cancelled, a particular conversation I had with my mom. I was in tears, ready to have it over, or at least started. I remember telling her that I just felt numb. Numb was the only way to adequately describe my feelings. A feeling that I was a little bit frustrated with because I wanted to sort out and deal with my feelings. I remember her telling me to "embrace the numbness." She encouraged me to allow the Savior to shoulder my emotions at this time, that He was there to help me bear the load until I could stand stronger. I remember being comforted and yet terrified by her statement. I remember thinking, "just let me deal with it now because the thought of it hurting more in the future or knowing that it might hit me even harder is absolutely terrifying." Once the surgery finally came and went I felt so at peace, so calm, so okay. As Beckam recovered I could feel my life slowly creep back to normal. I could feel myself trying to "get my feet back underneath me" and surprisingly I felt just fine. So, now here I stand, a month later. I can now feel that my legs are wobbly. I don't feel strong enough but I know in the end I will be. I just need to stretch my wings, strengthen my legs, and keep my eyes on the Savior.
Life is good. Life is not easy. But life, every day life, in or out of a rut, is so worth it. Because I know that, "In the Strength of the Lord, I can do ALL things."

Christmas 2008

We had a nice, quiet, relaxing Christmas this year. On Christmas eve we went to Jared's brothers house for dinner and other festivities. We had a fantastic time and feel so blessed to have them so close.

Once dinner was demolished it was off to open presents. We snuggled, we laughed, we checked on Santa's "progress" to which Cade would say, "holy cow! He will be here any minute!" Cade wasn't totally getting the whole idea of Santa until Christmas eve so it was so fun to see that childhood Christmas spirit ignite in him as he bounced around the house excited for Old Saint Nick to come.

All the little boys opened transformers that night. They were all so excited to break them out and see what they could become. However, even though the package said: Ages- 5 and older. I think we all agreed that they should have been for 45 and older because none of us could figure out how to "transform" them. Jared and Jason spent a good amount of time with the instructions and eventually transformed them into their first and final state of being. Needless to say, Cades is still and will always be an airplane.

Once the festivities had wound down and little eyes were beginning to be rubbed we headed home. As soon as Cade got out of the car he ran as fast as he could to the house so that, "Santa wouldn't see him." It made me smile and also made me wish that Santa would come every night because as soon as he entered the door he ran to his room, jumped into bed and we didn't hear a peep from him until we had to wake him up at 8:30 the next morning.

We left our treats for Santa and snuggled in to watch Fred Clause. I didn't think I would be able to sleep because I was so excited for the next morning but before I knew it Jared was nudging me and telling me that he was heading to bed. Although I did wake a couple of times that night with surges of excitement I was able to dose off again until the sun peeked thorough our blinds welcoming Christmas morning.

I didn't take many pictures of Christmas morning because I opted to video tape it instead. I wanted to be able to enjoy the moment and not just document it. So with the video camera and Beckam being passed back and forth between Jared and I we were able to experience Christmas through Cades eyes. It was so enthralling to feel his excitement. Every gift he opened it was as if it was the first gift he had ever received. He made me laugh, he made me tear up, me made me proud to call him mine, but most of all he made me realize how precious and exciting the simple things in life are. Beckam was a good little baby and mostly just liked to eat the wrapping paper. However, Cade got really excited for him every time he opened a present.

The tradition I grew up with and loved was that at the end of Christmas we would open our stockings and follow a string that starts at the stocking, winds through the house and ends at our "big" present from mom and dad. Cades stocking this year was his guitar. It is a cool guitar that Jared and I played with for about an hour before putting it in its final hiding place- the dryer. Cade was stoked about it and truly thinks he is a rock star!

Once we had opened our gifts- Jared surprised me with some shoes and gift cards and Santa brought him Rock Band 2- we headed back to Jason and Melissas for some breakfast. While the big boys rocked out the little boys put one their "armor," loaded up their artillery and headed outside...

while the girls put their feet up and had a tea party. So fitting!

The boys got mostly necessities from Santa but were spoiled but grandmas and grandpas.

We had a great holiday filled with family, food, and fun and feel so blessed to have the opportunity to celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior. Thank you to everyone who called, sent Christmas wishes, and participated in this fun time of year. We love you all!

To check out what we did for New Years go here. We had a BLAST! And as Cade would say, "you're the Rockinest Dude!"

Cade Originals-- December

December 2008
-- I was sitting at the computer and Cade came up, sat down on the chair, looked at me with serious eyes and says, "Mom, tell me the truth..." To which I reply, "the truth about what sweetheart?" He says, "the truth about the cows." I try not to laugh and say, "the cows, hu? Well the cows say, moo." He looks at me as I can see his brain working and says, "oh, okay, thanks mom."
--When Cade woke up after having a cold for awhile he came up to me and says, "mom, I cannot breath." I said, "you can't breath? I am sorry." He then looks at me, breaths in through his nose, points to his right nostril and says, "see, its not moving!"
--Cade was talking to me one morning and started speaking in gibberish. I had no clue what he was saying so I looked at him and said, "what was that you just said." He replies, "mom, I am telling you in Spanish that this is Beckams bowl. Thisio bowlio is Beckams. See, I am using my spanish!" Haha, thanks Handy Manny and Dora for teaching Cade "spanish"!
--Cade ran into the bathroom and said, "quick mom, I need a tissue! My nose is raining!"
--We have been talking to Cade all through December about Christmas being Jesus birthday. We explained to him that Jesus loves us and shares all of his birthday presents with us. We told him that what Jesus wants for His birthday is for us to be obedient. Well, after having this conversation many times I then asked him, "Cade what is it that you are going to give Jesus for His birthday?" He looks up as if he was thinking and says "hmmmm, I think I am going to give him a chocolate." Not quite the answer I was looking for.

Christmas Wishes

(just pretend you got this in the mail)

Merry Christmas to you all.  We love you!

*Card created by my wonderful, talented, amazing sister. Love ya Alls!

Prove It!

Cades favorite movie during Christmas is Mickeys Christmas Carol. One of the segments is about Goofy trying to help his son Max believe in Santa. During one of their conversations Max says, "prove it!" Of course, out of all the things that Cade could pick up on in the 60 minute movie he decides that "prove it" is the coolest. So, needless to say, I have been trying for last few weeks to find a phrase to replace "prove it" but have yet to do so. So, I am going to take the words from Cades mouth and "prove it," prove that we too have snow...


Cade and I were outside playing on Wednesday afternoon when the tiny snow flakes started to fly. I was so excited because I haven't seen snow for a long time and couldn't wait to share that experience with Cade. Thinking that it would only last a few short minutes I laughed, I played, I was giddy... until it didn't stop. I enjoyed it as long as we could stay inside but we had a good amount of driving to do in the afternoon that ended up taking about 5 times longer because us las vegasites just don't know what to do with the snow.

After Cades nap he woke to about 2 inches of snow and couldn't wait to get outside. After much convincing that he had to wear a coat he finally got all bundled but this as far as he made it...the front porch. As soon as he had made a footprint right outside the door he came running and said, "wow mom, it is too chilly."

I tried to get him to venture out further but no amount of coaxing could get him out. However, once he saw Jared he no longer needed coaxing and jumped right in. They rolled, they threw, they ran through the snow as it continued to come down, they lived the life of a little boy.

This is as far as their snowman got because all of a sudden Cade realized that he could no longer feel his hands and had a total melt down.

So we spent a great deal of time soaking.

This morning we woke up to a winter wonderland and once again Cade couldn't wait to throw some snow balls. I kept reminding him that he got cold and his fingers hurt last time but he didn't care...he wanted out. I didn't have much hope for him staying out but was pleasantly surprised when he decided, after throwing a few snow balls, that he really wanted to play hide and go seek. He kept picking behind his "snow man" as his hiding place and would squish his body up to the snow and put his face right on top.

Once hide and seek had ended he insisted on kicking all the snow off of our neighbors steps so that "she wouldn't fall down and get big, huge owies." It took him about 30 minutes but he got it all done and was proud of himself.

We came in with cold hands, red noses, and goosebumps but even better we came in with priceless memories and were able to "prove" that it can snow in the desert too.

Beckam-- Month 6

-Love to squeal in delight and can do so VERY loudly.
-Blow spit bubbles all the time.
-Only get angry when it is past nap/bed time and you want to go to sleep. You are kind of a bed snob.
-Love to watch Cade and usually laugh at him.
-Can almost hold your own bottle but don't understand that you have to keep it in your mouth to get the milk and will pull it out repeatedly.
-Like to try and suck your thumb and drink your bottle at the same time.
-Like baby food but it takes you a few bites to warm up to a new taste.
-So ticklish on your arms and shoulders.
-Can sit by yourself for a seconds before tipping yourself to the right side...always the right side.
-Love to bounce and bounce and bounce.
-You love to chew on your fingers...they are always in your mouth.
-You have a death grip and the sharpest fingernails ever, even after they have been clipped.
-Have visited the doctor 9 times and stayed in the hospital for 7 days in your little life time.
-Had your stitches taken out and the incision looks amazing!
-You smile with your eyes.
-You are so observant and love to soak in everything that is going on around you.
-Weigh 19lbs and measure 26.5 inches.
-You take 3 two hour naps a day.
-You just melt into anyone that is holding you. You are such a snuggle bug!
-We love you our little Beckam and are so proud of you!