6 Months and Counting...

Well we have made it 6 months without anything too eventful besides an increasingly growing belly and never ending shrinking clothes. I have truly enjoyed being pregnant, despite my last post, and feel honored to be able to carry this little guy. Cade has recently decided that he is having a "baby siser (sister)" for some reason so it will be interesting to see what he has to say when it is really a brother. And he is definitely getting a brother...this little guy was NOT shy for the ultrasound :)

After he eats and has a full belly he will stick out his tummy and say, "look mom, its my baby tummy!" to which I will respond, "cute tummy!" and try and kiss his belly. However, he will quickly stop me, put his finger to his mouth and say, "shhhhhh, the baby is slllleeeeeeeeping!" Silly me, what was I thinking?!

So there you have it folks...the 6 month belly. I have really, really, really popped out or "filled out" as Jared has chosen to term it these past few weeks and know I am only getting bigger! So here is to the last 6 and looking forward to the next 4 (isn't that just mean that you really have to be pregnant for 10 months but only get recognition for 9 of them ;) )

Come Out, Come Out, Wherever You Are...

Where have we been, you ask? And going crazy is the answer. These past few weeks have been filled with constant go go go. We have logged about 24+ hours in the car and have packed a lot of fun people into a short amount of time. As I mentioned in my last post we went to Utah last weekend and were able to see Jareds family. Before we left my uncle and cousin pulled into Las Vegas and stayed at our house while they went to the NASCAR rases. It was so much fun to see every one even though it was a quick trip.
Jareds mom came back to Las Vegas when we came back so we were able to spend a little bit more time with her which was nice. The rest of the week was filled with laundry, dishes, running errands and just trying to get home so we could get ready to head out to Arizona the next weekend. The long awaited "hearing" with my HOA finally happened (its a long story but lets just say I DO NOT like them!!) After jumping through many hoops they have finally erased the bogus fine they put on our account so I was very relieved and so happy to have it over with.
We were scheduled to leave to Arizona first thing on Friday morning to take my nephew to his baseball tournament but my body had different plans. On Thursday afternoon I started feeling a little yucky and by that night I wanted to die. I spent the night throwing up, with the chills, a fever and crying because I did not want to stay home alone sick but I also didnt know if I could make the drive. Friday morning I woke up to the sunshine and realized that I could move without wanting to run to the bathroom, thank heavens for the 24 hour bug, and jumped right into my neglected packing. We made it out of here a little late but we made it.
We spent the weekend with our friends the Wurtz. We met them right after we were married and have been friends ever since. We had so much fun spending time with them and have missed having them right next door. Cade and Brooklynn played and played. We also had a really great time watching Chandler play baseball, he played his heart out and did a great job.
So, there you have it, our craziness. We are now preparing to welcome the Mountain West Tournament to Las Vegas and cheer on our cougars.
I apologize for the lack of pictures and shortage of posts. Life has been busy but I have really spent most of it just trying to survive. I have been very lucky this pregnancy in that I have felt really good. I haven't been sick, I have been able to still go to the gym, and life has seemed to stay rather normal. However, these past few weeks my emotions and Cades "2 year oldness" have collided and collided hard. It is just crazy because I dont think that either one of us has quite the grip on reality that we would like to. So, I am hoping and praying that the time will soon come that I can wrap my mind, feelings and most of all my emotions around reality and just get a grip. So there is my deep dark secret, I am a closet basket case when I am pregnant. But I have to say that I am so thankful for my health and for this little baby getting ready to come to our home. So until next time keep your fingers crossed that I don't lose my mind.

Small Update

Life has been a crazy whirl wind around here! It has finally warmed up which has been SO SO SO nice!! I honestly do not know how I used to endure so many months of winter when I lived in Utah and Rexburg. We have been loving the sunshine, shorts and sunglasses. Cade loves his sunglasses and takes them everywhere. It is too funny to watch him wear them because they are way too big so he has to walk around with his head tipped up so they do not fall off.

Cade has also become increasingly more independent and insists on doing everything himself and dressing is one of his favorites. I was totally laughing at him when he put his jammies on and had to waddle around because both legs ended up in the same pant leg. He didn't mind too much though because he was so proud of himself for accomplishing the task at hand.

We have been traveling all around the place and Utah has been one of the places we have hit. Last weekend we jetted up there for a blessing and a baptism. It was so much fun to see our little Sawyer again on his special blessing day. He is such a good baby and getting so big! We had a wonderful time with our family and just wish that we could have stayed longer!

We also got to meet our newest little nephew, Makay. He was born only a week ago and was such a sweet little cuddle bug. Jared couldn't get enough of him. I think that it made both of us just that more excited for our little guy to get here. And gave me hope that Cade can be nice and soft with a little baby.

I also had such a wonderful birthday. My cute hubby and some family took me out to eat at the melting pot and we had a fabulous time! It was so much fun to get all the cards, phone calls, emails, and birthday wishes. I am not one to ask for attention or want the spotlight but when I woke up this morning and realized my birthday was over for a whole year I must admit that I was a little sad. So thank you to everyone who made my birthday so special and made me excited for next March 3rd to come around!

Could I Really...?

So I have been thinking lately, really just the past day or so, about doing something crazy and completely insane. Like I said, it is a new idea so I haven't had enough time to let the reality of the thought sink in so I could VERY easily change my mind. But at the moment I am toying with the idea of having this baby o'natural. I know, it is nuts! I have watched many Baby Stories on TLC and every time they have the baby without an epidural I say, out loud to the TV, "you are so crazy, why are you doing that to yourself?" However, yesterday I had a different look at it. It hit me how much I would absolutely need Jared to make it through if I had no medication. That it would be an experience that WE had together rather than I had and he was there. As a side note, he will be WAY more involved with this birth than he was with Cade simply because he will be THERE in the same state, in the same hospital, in the same room. However, with that said I just feel as if it would be different without the epidural, a process that we will both have to prepare for together, that I would have to rely completely and wholly on him to help me keep my mind and body in check. Having a baby is an emotional, spiritual, and amazing experience no matter the medications and other factors involved but I am toying with the idea.

I think that when reality really steps in is when I realize that with Cade I reached the hospital at 9pm and felt like I wanted to die, only to have 10 more hours until he actually made his debut. I did not have to push too long but none the less would have been in a great deal of pain if I did not have a wondrous epidural. I am also worried about ruining the birthing experience for myself. I LOVED giving birth with Cade, it was amazing. and I can honestly say that I would have done it again the next day and so if this whole no epidural thing backfires, I just don't want to be afraid to have another baby because it was a horrendous experience. And finally I just don't know if I could do it. I like to think that I am tough but is this an unnecessary time to be tough? Is this just nuts? Am I capable of doing this? I don't know and am glad that I do not have to decide now, that I have 4 months to make my decision. Any thoughts from those of you out there? Any experiences had? Anything learned? Anything I can do to prepare? I will keep you posted with my craziness and fill you in on any new insane ideas.

Life

I have been thinking a lot about life lately. A subject that I am not quite sure how to wrap my words around but none the less has been weighing heavily on my mind and in my heart. There are so many aspects to this thing we call Life, this journey that we are all on. I am continually amazed at the different paths we are all on, the different trials we experience, the varying emotions we feel but are all still striving for the same ultimate goal....Happiness.
How often we loose that simple moment. That quiet moment. That fleeting moment. How often we allow the happiness that is so willingly around us to be banished by the hustle and bustle of life, the frustration of a moment, or the craziness of a day. How often we forget. We forget that life is so precious, so fragile, so simple.
I have been touched by so many friends and loved ones, by their strength, by their example. I often get too caught up in the "stressful" things in life that I assume that I have been dealt a "difficult" hand at times. I forget the goodness, the happiness, the peace that I experience in my every day experiences and allow it to be tainted by the insignificant things in life. To be replaced by a hectic morning, a learning toddler, a misinterpreted comment, a too long to-do list. I too often forget.
I cannot pinpoint the reason for this post but I have known that I have needed to write it for quite a while. I have needed to say thank you to those who have shared heartache and happiness, those that have been honest and willing to be vulnerable, those that have been so patient and such examples of strength. I have needed to remind myself that life is happy. That moments get hard but those are fleeting and needed. That there is so much goodness in life, in people, in the gospel. That it is the small moments, the tucking in moments, the singing song moments, the playing blocks moments, the snuggling moments, the saying prayers moments that ooze with joy.
I encourage every one, mostly myself, to reevaluate. To stop. To listen. To be grateful. It is the small things in life that add up. It is the small moments that build the biggest memories and the strongest foundations of strength for the stormy times. Don't forget to give the hugs. Don't forget to say the thank yous and express the joyful feelings. Don't forget to drink in those quiet moments of peace to allow them to penetrate deep within, to accept them as gifts from our Heavenly Father. Don't forget to smile. Don't forget to enjoy.
Life gets stormy, rocky, and incredibly overwhelming at times but we will not drowned. Allow the heavy moments to be those that are fleeting, not those that are the rock. Be still and allow the happiness to consume you...it will.

Thank you again to all of those that have shared your moments of truth. Your defining experiences. Your life changing lessons. You have touched my heart more than you know and have inspired me to reach higher and enjoy the moments I have been blessed with. You are in my heart and in my prayers. Thank you again.

To the Men in My Life...

Happy Valentines to the two men in my life that Watch over me...

Comfort, Love, and Protect me....

and make me Smile, Laugh, and Love even the Small moments of life.
I Love you!

...And Happy Valentines to all the family, friends, and important people in my life. Thank you for all your love, support, and smiles! You have truly made my life rich and rewarding...

"Hello Baby!"

Well, the votes have been cast, tallied, and tested and the results are in. According to the poll 58% of you thought that this little "heirloom tomato" (that is the size of the baby at the moment) is a girl. However, I must say that the ultrasound tech said that the other 41% were correct. We are having a little baby boy and couldn't be more excited about it! Jared was bouncing off of the walls and handing out "Its a boy" blue jelly beans to everyone and headed to the party store as soon as we left to get balloons, candies, and blue baby bottles to hand out.
I have been asked by many people if I am excited or a little disappointed but I must say that I am so happy and quite relieved. As soon as we looked at the monitor and saw his little legs I knew that it was a little brother for Cade. I cannot wait for them to wrestle, play trucks, make touchdowns, attend cougar games, and just play like only brothers can. I know that my house is going to be overflowing with testosterone but I cannot wait! We are almost half way through until we can let the fun begin.

19 weeks